Monday, August 26, 2013

Rejected - me - seriously:-X

"I want to be independent and self dependent in my life. I want to live and see the struggle every successful person has to go through once in their life”
These were the first words that had come across my mind when I completed me B.E. I still wonder from where I got this lame idea of doing a Job and living on my own. Even though I had three other options to explore,
• First, I could continue studying my guts out for Mtech or MBA.
 • Second, I could be a typical “gujjuben” and join my family business.
• Third, sit home a year so that eventually my parents would marry me.

Due to the “Self Respect”, “Self Worth”, “Ambition” or whatever hell it is called, I went against all odds to convince my family that I want to live on my terms now. Thus, began my JOB hunting phase. I had this dumb concept that finding a JOB is the easiest JOB ever. Also, I was one of the smart ones of my batch, sort of impressive communication skills and all in all a package that no company would refuse. At least I thought that..
For a month I had been sending in my resumes to companies all over Pune, I was stubborn on joining a company in Pune as none of my distant relatives lived in the city. I believed Pune would give me the exposure where I would live a party life everyday (this has not yet happened). There were no interview calls as such, but I was okay with it as I was busy cultivating Patience in me.
Finally, one fine day a friend and I got interview calls from the same company. I was so fucking confident of getting that JOB. The beginning of the Interview day was happy and energetic. I easily cracked the apti and was unbeatable in the GD. But at the end of the day, I was monstrously killed by the three interviewers and stabbed again and again for an hour continuously. I went blank for every question they had for me. It was that awkward moment when you’re in an interview and you stare at the interviewer saying nothing but a “HMMM”, expecting a little mercy from the other side. In self protection, I actually got sarcastic with them.

Results as expected, I was fired even before I got in. That was okay, the thing that was highly depressing was that my friend had got through. Not that I wasn’t happy for her, but as all know the famous Three Idiots dialogue,” When you fail you feel bad, but when your friend is out in flying colors and you flunk it feels worse.” It should explain my situation.

Never having faced a failure or a rejection ever in life, it was the worst moment in my life. I felt like a looser and had bizarre ideas of working in a call center or an event management company (not that they are bad, but I was a freaking engineer). I really did not know how o face my parents who I had confidently said that I won’t need your money henceforth. The ‘L’ in my luck was kinda been replaced with an ‘F’. I might sound a little over reacting right now, but trust me it was a bad time.

Though I did get place in my second interview, but my first rejection was good enough to break in the Ego but also got me angry on myself for the over confidence. And I believe anger is a very strong feeling to either bring you down or send you far above the failures. I hope it’s the positive way for me. Anyway, these JOB hunting months were a great experience for me, teaching me what really it is in the outside world. I had experienced something that would help me enjoy, preserve and cherish my success in future.
Finally a quote that made me feel good then,
“When life hands you lemons, calmly cut one in half, turn around and squirt juice in life’s eye.”

- By Anvi Mehta

Wednesday, August 21, 2013

Out from the shade..


I have spent 20 years of my life in my hometown, amongst people I know, I care for and I love. A protective father, a loving mother, a snotty sister and crazy friends have always been there for me.I was born here and have grown older living each of life's experiences. I.have spent the best of my school days here riding bicycles everywhere and have gone through the craziest "teens" bunking classes and hitting on guys. Be it my first kiss, the first break up, the first hangover or the first serious commitment, all my "everything in life happens for the first time" were in this city. And today, after all these years of love, laughter and craziness I am leaving this place. A tornado of emotions are storming inside me. Though I am very excited and looking forward for a new bunch of adventures to happen in the new place, but it's also difficult to just say good bye. There is a list of things that I am going to be miss a lot, right from my home made food to the food stall guy who knew how I liked my sandwiches, the first rains that I had never missed in all these years to the New Year celebrations with my childhood friends. I would certainly miss my family and friends, and i would cherish them forever. I am also ready and up for making new friends, new memories and a new fondness towards my new city. I hope this city likes me as well. Maybe this is what everybody leaving their safe place of shade go through. So, here I am in a completely new city searching for my new safe shade..!!

“Everybody has to leave, everybody has to leave their home and love their new abode finding new reasons and new people.”

- By Anvi Mehta